Misery Loves Making Out

I'm a bitch, so sue me

I can't help but be a little pissed off when women I know get married and they don't even consider keeping their own names. Its craziness. People act like I'm the weird one for not changing my last name that I've had for almost 27 years. They're crazy for not even taking a second to think about changing theirs. Why is it a given? Its so stupid. We're not property. You're still married. You don't need to make your poor husband feel good about himself by changing an important part of yourself when I guarantee you he would not do the same for you because he realizes that, when you really think about it, there's no point.

ugh ugh ugh

i feel really shitty today. the dog is acting up and terrorizing the cats, i did really bad on my math test - like really bad, we have no money in our checking account - like less than ten dollars, and my financial aid money still hasn't posted. i'm so tired of things being shitty. i'm tired of working and being poor. i'm tired of my smart-ass math professor treating me like i'm an imbecile because i don't know how to do algebra. i'm tired of having to listen attentively to other people's problems and long-ass boring stories when no one ever listens to mine. i'm tired of not getting the recognition i deserve and other people not getting the bitching out that they deserve. i'm tired of oweing people money. i'm tired of worrying about what everyone else wants to do about my wedding - its my fucking wedding.

Vintage! Pop culture! Ipad! Couture! Papier Mache! Repurposed!

I just looked through the 'find people to follow' list. I've never hated the word 'vintage' more.

Suicide: Trigger Warning

I watched a special on 20/20 tonight about suicide chat rooms. These people get together and talked about being depressed, discuss the best way to kill themselves, and will sometimes even make pacts with each other to commit suicide together or in front of a webcam for everyone to see. This is all so fucking disturbing on so many levels.

It scares me that these people are all feeding off each other in these rooms with no one to snap them back into reality - on the contrary, there is more likely to be someone to push them further towards the edge. I feel for these people, I really do. I have been there on many occasions but suicide is not a good option.

You just have to hold on. I'm not trying to insinuate that things are going to be great all the time either. Things suck sometimes. Mental illnesses are usually chronic, you basically just have to resign yourself to that fact. You will never be "fixed". You will have to take your meds everyday and do what your doctor says and fucking "fake it 'til you make it" like the rest of us. Give the people around you a chance to help you before you do anything drastic. If you don't they'll spend the rest of their lives living with the guilt of wondering if they could have stopped you. You owe it to yourself and everyone who loves you to ask for help.

1-800-suicide (Hope Line)